One Final Attempt

I have gotten some ativan into me, and with mom's help, drafted a reply. I can't stop crying.

The wedding thing was like being slapped in the face. This is a draft email, and I'll send it after I think on it for a while, and my friends at www.butyoudontlooksick.com have weighed in. I know Kate doesn't like NOT to have the last word - how childish!! - so I'm expecting anoter nasty email from her once I send this.

I know that I have done nothing wrong. This is all her.

Dear Kate,

I am sorry that you feel that way. I should have told you earlier that what has really hurt me is your deliberately telling me that I was NOT invited to your wedding, after I thought we were best friends. If you had told me that it was ONLY family that was invited, then I could understand. But as it stands now, I don't understand why I'm not invited. I also feel very sad that most of the many times that we agreed to meet did not happen. I understand that you have been diagnosed with agoraphobia, but I am hurt by the times you stood me up without telling me ahead of time. I get the feeling (prior to the email I am replying to) that you just don't want to see me anymore.

Stephanie